in response to positive thoughts...   so true... so true...many times a door has closed but a window was always available and what had seemed the darkest times was a time of rebirth that put me right in the paths of others that have been a blessing beyond words and im reminded of an ancient saying when a teacher would hold up a hand at the protestations of those they enlighten and say "what is missing at this very moment?" and right now everything is o.k.

I guess theres always a calm before the storm .....yeah looking back I see that life was running almost too smoothly, I was just going through the motions but you know in all of this upheaval I feel more alive than ever...or is that just the stress response? the flight or flight deal where all this adrenaline is dumped into our system?? ok im rambling but I know theres gota be someone out there that can relate.  I know everythings going to be alright one way or the other, hey we could be living in haiti or some other god awful place right? to get through I try to remember my blessings (as trite as that sounds) really I wish everyone the best and if you happen to run across anyone who needs a caregiver let me know...Peace